​I was picked up at a goth night at the local gay club by a 34 year old when I was 19. The person in question* was very cool, had some niche fame both in kink and locally, and I was excited to be involved. (Former titleholder, et cetera.) When…

Today is the start of school for (I think most) kids in the USA today, and I always thought that it was ironic that my mother, (who wasn’t a morning person) always had to work on her birthday, which would have been today. I’m sure there were a few years…

Personal update department of personal updates presents a small personal Pride/Wrath Month related update from Julian. Pride month is extra weird this year. The whole world is weird this year. Obviously. All that being said, getting to cruise down Central in a show of solidarity with Black Lives Matter, the…

5/8 Feelings and malware kept me from updating for quite some time, but this is still a valid exercise, so I’m picking it back up again. I really like PPJ. I feel sexy and appreciated around him. It was low key starting to bug me that I might have been doing the biggest percentage of accommodation, and I show up to food being ordered and several options of hard cider already cold for me. We took a walk in the moonlight, we came together- there’s music.

Feeling woozy and it’s hot outside. Both together make me pretty low-functional, so it’s nice that I can hole up in my dark cool Hollar until the sun goes down and be semi-functional. I am aware it’s not even 90 degrees out there. Rice should be ready soon, and that almost always helps. Watched Midnight Gospel with J, first several episodes from here, and then together for the last at least two. I cried, and likely could have safely sobbed if I’d let myself. Grief has been harsh the last two days.

4/25, my nib’s birthday, the perfect date (not too hot or too cold), and it was an emotional roller coaster. Got discombobulated by a reasonable exchange, got upset, used my logic centers and went on with my plans anyway. Got more than a full day of human warmth, allowed myself vulnerability, cried in grief, played table top games, and was rewarded with a casual but beautiful “I love you” surrounded by laughter and smiles.

I’ll play. Top ten things I hate that other people mostly don’t: 1. Crude, crass, and/or bodily humor. Heavy/violent slap stick included 2. Spiritualists and/or “Progressives” who deny science 3. Coconut meat, artificial coconut flavoring too 4. Direct sunlight 5. “Social nicety” lies 6. Drinking beer. I understand it, I…

I’ve been off here for a bit because I managed to get malware *and* a browser plug in that took my geek hero from ye olden daze logging into to my briefcase remotely to scrub it clean. Things of note during the last several days, after a visit from my…

My glorious tummy is tender from all the sunlight I exposed myself to for what was a far more epic Snow Shoot than I ever could have anticipated. Working with artists is something I’m grateful for, and working with Felicia has challenged, inspired and empowered me in ways I didn’t even know I needed. We shot for a few hours in the snow, and the results are incredible. I lost a ring and accidentally left my Portland sunglasses in a snow bank. Yesterday, I went back and got them by remembering the spot, and following the tracks we left. The snow was Much more melted today, I was proud of my boyscout skills.